for the past few weeks, I have been very unmotivated and it seems to my parents its just some covid lockdown blues but I am trying so hard (TW) to not hurt myself and I have been clean for a month now but I have no clue how to keep my urges abay and I have friends that have suffered from this too but I don't want to be a burden to them and I am the 'mum' of the friend group and the therapist as well so I feel like I cant suffer from this because I need to stop my friend from hurting themselves and, and I'm happy to listen and help them stop their urges but I don't know how to stop my own. For about two years now I have known (i was diagnosed with them) that I had anxiety, depression, and PTSD but I used to be a social person but now I'm really anti-social and I think its because of lockdowns but I feel less capable of helping my friends with their mental health because I can't control my own. and I know for a fact that if my mum heared this she would cry so I'm saying it here because it feels safer than talking to my mum.

2 years ago

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