I don’t think that anyone except from my family needs me. I don’t think that anyone except from my family wants to make sure that Im doing okay or not, if I am happy or sad, if I smile or feel lonely. I don’t think that anyone except from my family wants me. I’ve been trying to convince myself that being alone is good for me but I now feel lonely. Actually lonely. Haven’t felt this way in a long time. When I go for walks, I see people holding hands, laughing together, having their inside jokes. I see them caring about each other when they cross the road. I see them being happy, at least I think so. And this makes me realise how lonely I am. I recently started questioning whether there is anyone who truly cares about me. I am the one who messages others about how their day was, what have they been doing, what they had for dinner. Sometimes they answer, sometimes they don’t. And I know this shouldn’t bother me but it hurts. It hurts to know that you’re not the person who they enjoy talking to, spending time with. You are just a side character. Like you’ve always been.
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