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I’ve been dealing with a lot of self hate. Like I’ve messed up bad in my past and I’ve seek counseling but for some reason I can’t let go what I’ve done. It brings me down all the time. I already fight anxiety and depression. This just makes it worse. I’ve cheated on my husband and can’t tell you how much I hate myself for it. I’m not that girl. I don’t cheat , I don’t flirt , I’m not that kind of girl..... But then I did. Why?! I know better! I know it’s wrong. I know it’s a sin. I didn’t only hurt my husband, the other people, myself, but the most important person... God. I hurt Him. Idk why I did that. I know God forgives me and my husband has but I can’t forgive myself. I don’t even know how to start doing that. Wish I could cause I need that healing . I need for myself , and for my family. I just really wish I could move on from all this hate