I’m so mixed up in my emotions Today I rejected a friend after she stated she was into me and wanted a deeper relationship (I’m a guy), admittedly I was into her too but I told her I wasn’t ready for that. Now things are just really weird. I just can’t do that right now. I’m already struggling to take care of my disabled single mom. She’s unable to work and we don’t have a lot of money, so I have to work alot and go to school in order to help her out. My dad isn’t around because he was shot and killed when I was a baby. So it’s just me and my mom. So I don’t have time for a girlfriend. We’re never going to be able to do anything together because I’m constantly busy. I’m only 17 man I can’t just be overworked like this. I already live with depression and insomnia, so I don’t ever get to rest. Trust me all I want to do is lie down in a bed all day because I feel so down. I have no Ambition, but I can’t. I have to work my ass off everyday. So I explained all that to her and she began to cry and I feel like the world’s biggest jerk. What makes me weird is that I dream of having this ideal girlfriend and when someone actually comes up to me asking for something deeper I say no. So I don’t really know what I want.

1 year ago

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