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I need to get this off my chest. I feel like dying all the time but I'm scared to. My mom yells at me for the silliest things. One time I spilled water on the counter and she yelled at me even though I cleaned it up. And another time she was mad at me and she grabbed my wrist very hard. I struggled to make her let go. She finally let go. I fell onto the door hitting my head. It hurt very badly but my mom said "stop being a baby you asshole" And walked off. Also, another time I came home 10 minutes after curfew. She got very very mad and she didn't let me eat at all the next day. I confronted her about it saying the human body needs food but she shrugged and said, "you need to lose weight anyway." I cry into my pillow almost every night. I tell myself that I will be okay and i am just being dramatic. I stop crying for a second but usually keep crying. And when I cry I silent it, I don't want people to know I am this way I don't want people to feel bad for me. I just want to be treated normal. I want to tell someone but I am scared to because I told my sister and she said I was dramatic. I don't want to be judged so I am doing this anonymously. But I need some advice on what to do. Sincerely, a 14 and a half year old who is fucking stupid and fat :)