I miss childhood

Does anybody else miss their childhood? I do. It was the best with PBS and Shining Stars and LPS, not to mention Zoo Pals and Playhouse Disney as well as other things that I forget (2000s babies, please help) But it was bad too for me which makes me not miss it, like bullying every single school year, getting depression at age 10, and my mother becoming disabled. I wanna go back, but I don’t at the same time. What do I do?