I used to never understand why people self harmed. Now I do. I love the pain. It makes me feel something, it’s the only thing getting me through the days. Nobody knows I do it, I do it on my leg and thigh. Its staring to really get bad again, but it’s the only thing that helps. I need help I think, but I don’t wanna reach out anymore. They all just laugh, no one’s ever there when I need them either.