Sometimes, all I want was to smash things around me to let go of my emotion or even to just cry and throw tantrum infront of him but I stopped myself from that. I have been telling myself to keep everything to myself , to not get too close with anyone because it hurts whenever they show the intention of dislike . It hurts so badly and being going through this ups and downs for about 3 months was something so challenging and I really dont know how anymore. I dont even know who can I really talk to or even to express out but to keep all this feelings inside me. I am very tired and exhausted....very tired and exhausted.. I have been telling myself not to think too much or to be unhappy but I am wrong. the feeling is so strong... I have been feeling to just end everything because nothing seems real to me or nothing seems to be last.. Am I even worth living ? Do I understand things that happen around me? what exactly do I want ? I just want to have someone who will never make me feel diswanted.......................
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