You know. I wish I could stop hurting myself. Why cant I be the one to be selfish. Why do I always have to be the one to lose in the end. But of course even when surrounded by “many” people I still feel that deep loneliness. I’ve always felt lonely. I don’t really understand myself or just anything in general. I admit I’m not perfect, but hell no one is. Why cant I be the one to have that happiness. Now it just seems whenever I do have it, something has to happen everytime. It scares me. But that’s life, and I’ve learned to accept it and move on. I’ve fully given up. As much as I want to just die, I know the pain of loss. Even not viewing myself as someone important, I can’t leave those I love in this shitfull world we call home. I’m tired.

2 years ago

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