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I’m 17 and i know that I’m too young to be thinking about my soulmate or my husband right now but I can’t help it. I want to know that when I’m dating someone, it isn’t just for nothing. At the moment I’ve been talking to me ex for about a month. He’s insanely sweet and is madly in love with me, and I know that i like him but when I’m around him I feel the pressure of acting like perfect girlfriend material and hiding all my flaws. I pretend to be perfect around him and I’m afraid that he is in love with just that part of me, not all of me. I have fun moments with him and we have tons of things in common and sometimes I feel like I could be with him for a long time, but there are two things stopping me. I’m scared he doesn’t love me for me... and I’m scared I’m actually in love with my guy best friend. I just feel so god damn comfortable with him, we have jokes and we make fun of eachother constantly. We call a lot, watch tv series together on the phone, and actually think so similarly, he knows a lot about me and remembers things. I’m almost positive he likes me too but i don’t know what to do. Another problem is that my girl best friend thinks that my ex is amazing for me and she doesn’t really like my guy best friend. She thinks he’s a jerk and he’s inconsiderate but she doesn’t realize that what he says are all jokes and he just likes messing with people for fun. I’m writing on here and begging anyone for help because I can’t go to anyone else. My girl best friend already has an opinion so i can’t even ask her. I guess the main problem is... I’m afraid I might be in love with two people. Can someone point me in a direction please