I have to go out tonight. It’s a commitment that I cannot get out of. Honestly, since this stupid pandemic and social isolation - I’ve become depressed and filled with anxiety. I medicated with food and gained 30 pounds since last March. So there it is, my selfish reason for not wanting to go out. I feel too fat and nothing fits me. I’m embarrassed that I’ve done this to myself. I realize there’s no magic pill or fast or fast track to losing this weight. It took me 12 months to put it on, and probably 12 months to take it off. I’m just f’ing pissed that my summer is going to be ruined due to my lack of self control.

2 years ago

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