I just want to pack up my things and leave, move away from everyone and start afresh. I have this constant feeling of worry and dread, my closest friends are starting to piss me off, and I’m scared they’re gonna screw me over for their own gain, I need to remember that’s my insecurities and deep thinking talking, but it’s hard to ignore it, especially when going to sleep, all these emotions just come to a head. Almost inescapable. The only release I get from them at night is dreaming, but I’ve started to hate that aswell. I feel pathetic for imagining a life of love when I’m here barely getting by, I feel like I’m trying to live in a fantasy, and the thought of ignorance scares me. I don’t know what I want anymore. Freedom? Change? Calmness? A break?

2 years ago

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