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I miss you so much Johnathan. You were the one for me. I had only known you for about a month but somehow I knew. I had never felt a connection with someone so loving. So fulfilling. So beautiful. And so nerve wracking by how it broke so many barriers I had. I really thought I was going to marry you one day... So why? Why did you give up? Why did you give up when things got tough? I kept on fighting to talk to you, to spend time with you. I know it was only on video and long distance hurt. But why did you give up after you moved? Was I not enough? I should have been, so why wasn't I? What happened? Do you even miss me? I wish I stopped missing you... And to even ask if we could remain friends afterward. All I want is to talk to you, but friends? You know how much it would have hurt if you put more effort in being friends than being my boyfriend? Or if you moved on to another girl? How could we be friends, when we were never friends before? How could we be friends after the things we been through. You said you wished you met me sooner... Was it a lie? Or have you grown bored of me? I wish I could talk to you...