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To my former best friend, I just wanted your attention. I wanted you to appreciate me. I wanted your friendship. But you never tried. You never gave a damn about our relationship. I was just there for your convenience. Someone to talk to when you’re bored. Never the first choice. Why. Why. Why. I don’t understand. I didn’t understand then and I don’t think I ever will. Why don’t you feel the same way for me? Why am I always chasing after you? Why do I still care? Because you don’t. You don’t care. Why don’t you care? I just want your apprect=iation. Back then, too. Why can’t I be by your side as your equal? As a friend? You’ve never put any effort into our relationship. You don’t deserve my friendship. I deserve so much better. But I miss you. I miss you so much. Why would you do those things to me? Why would you treat me like that? I’ve always wanted to be with you. So, why? Do you know how many times I’ve cried about you. About what we had. What we don’t have. What am I doing wrong? I asked myself. You don’t care. It’s embarrassing. I can’t say no to you. I want your appreciation. Can you try for me? Try to mend this thing. You make me feel so bad about myself. I can’t do anything for you. I’m not good enough for you. I never was. I never will be. Why? What do you see in them? Why them and not me? Why did this happen to us? Will you discard them as you did to me. Are you a good friend to them? Do they cry as I do over you? Do you treat them better? Please treat them better. I miss you. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why would you do that to me? I don’t deserve this. You don’t deserve me. I miss you so much. Sincerely, ----