For the past two weeks my life has gotten worse than it has in my entire life. I can feel my depression taking over. This entire day i’ve been contemplating taking my life. I’ve been telling myself my entire life that i wouldn’t let it get this bad but now look where we are. I am just so full of pain and sadness and numbness and I want it to just all go away. I know that suicide isn’t the right way but it feels like the only way. And even if I know I have a serious problem I can’t stop thinking I’m doing this all for attention. I don’t know if I’m actually gonna do it and I don’t even know what i would do but I know that I want all this to end tonight one way or another.