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Im 13 years old, I have a brother a mother a father. My brother is currently in a foster home, my mother is currently in jail, and my dad is currently gone clinically insane. I have been in foster care for years and years, my mother did drugs. Father smoked weed, brother has ADHD and is hyper all the time. I have PTSD, Depression, and Anxiety. I have the most problems out of me and my brother. I have three other siblings, two brothers, and a sister I have never ever met before. I listen to a lot of music, I write all my feelings, I have been heartbroken, I have gone days without eating, I have been beaten half to death, I have cut myself, I have eaten a food that I knew could kill me, I have taken too many pills, I have smoked too much weed. I have tried to kill myself, I have almost OD, I had to kill someone because I needed to protect me and my brother when I was ten, I had to do a lot of things I never wanted, I have been raped multiple times, I have tried and tried to help myself, I have tried and tried and tried and tried and tried. I am just so done, with this thing called life. I have tried it, and all its done is kick me down, I dont know what else to do other than just give up. I have tried to be soft, and passive, and just suck up to everyone