Do you ever just blast music in your ears knowing it's going to overstimulate you cause you want to just stop thinking, just stop being and you know there's nothing you can do to make yourself feel better. Doesn't matter what you do, it never gets better. And there's so many people who have actually reasons to feel this shitty, and your just here. Doing jack shit, and failing school cause you can't seem to fucking get out of bed. My life has been fine, it's been good. I have a dysfunctional family but so what? I know they'll be here when I need them to. There isn't any reason to feel like this, but I do and thinking about it makes me feel worse. Everyone always asks why i'm sad or why i'm having a bad day or why I can't seem to fucking eat and I don't have a anwser. It fucking sucks.