I can’t bring myself to get out of bed. I escape from reality by watch twitch streamers and YouTube videos. I want my parents to know how I feel and why 65 assignments are missing. I want to feel like a kid again. I disappoint them a lot all I want is for them to tell me everything will be ok. I wish I could tell them how I feel but I don’t trust them in the slightest. My mom would just tell her friends and she’s even made me show them my wrists. My aunt hit me (not hard like a little slap) after I told her I thought she would understand. My stepdad he doesn’t understand shit. I love but hate him he’s the on,y father figure I have. They won’t even get me diagnosed with anything. I don’t know how long I will be alive for.