I’ve tried to be as good as I can be for my parents but it seems like it’s not enough. I can’t trust my mom because I have told her I cut myself and I trusted her to keep it to herself but she ended up telling her friends. My stepdad I feel as if I can’t tell him anything because he’s always playing bingo or he’s just watching tv or in a grumpy mood because he doesn’t have weed. My family just says the things they say they don’t mean it but why would they say such hurtful things in the first place? My stepdad has made comments on my weight so I have been starving myself. My mom doesn’t even stop him he’ll even make racist remarks (my family are people or color) and she’ll agree with him. I think she likes male validation if anything. He was cheating and doing Doug for years and she didn’t leave him because she loved him too much. I don’t think she puts her kids into consideration she just wants to be with him. He’s the closest thing I have to a dad since mines has left me. I have never liked most of the guys in my family their mean and just end up leaving. I don’t get attached I’m too scared because I know they will leave. My aunt has a boyfriend he’s 40 and has a wife and kids. He’s a kind man but I don’t understand why he would do that. I guess I’ll understand when I’m older I wish I could just turn 16 and move out. I feel as if it would take too long I don’t feel like waiting five years. I would consider living with my aunt but she scares me at times when she gets angry she’ll kiss her teeth and she’ll start swearing. I just want to get away from everything. I can’t complain though others have it worse I just want a family that’s not like this.

2 years ago

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