Just heard I lost my grandfather. I was supposed to go visit him in 2020 but I couldn’t because of the pandemic. I’ve never hurt this bad. I don’t know how to cope. I can’t stop crying. I was looking forward to seeing him again, hoping I’d get to hug him one last time. I’ll never be able to do do that. I miss him so much. I can’t bear this pain, it hurts so much.