OTHER - I really don’t think that many people would be effected if I died. I feel like maybe a handful of pe...

I really don’t think that many people would be effected if I died. I feel like maybe a handful of people would be sad for a moment but not enough to do anything. I really don’t feel like anything is going to get better even though i really try. They only reason I’m still alive is because I’m afraid If I commit suicide I’d go to hell. I just wish someone genuinely loved me it just all feels fake and surface level.