I wake up everyday missing my kids more than the last day, I've had two kids with the same women, when I met her she was with another man she lied to me I fidnt know he was a part of the picture until she started going back and forth but I loved her and she was younger than me so I gave it time an forgave her over and over thinking maybe one day she would come to her senses an stop chasing someone that didn't love her the same when she had someone that would do anything for her in front of her face an I stayed loyal an I stayed with her she got pregnant with our daughter an it was the happiest I had been in a very long time because I loved the girl and I was hoping our new found addition to our family would help open her eyes but it didnt four months into her pregnancy we left a doctor's appointment for the baby for us to make it home an sit on the couch while we sat on the couch the doctors called back she put the phone on speaker thinking it was a regular call until the doctors told her she had to come back because she had caught clymidia she looked at me I said right to her if she blamed me I'm done which she did which I got checked four times in two days an all came back negative but she came back positive she was still sleeping with her ex pregnant an caught the clap on top of it mind you I told her everything was going to be ok that we would make it threw it together I loved the girl with everything in me so it was easy to forgive her but also sad cause I should have gave up there two days later I dropped her off for work we kissed told eachother we loved eachother an she went in I went to work by the time I made it to work she was calling my phone telling me it's over bring her car back to her I did I cried the whole way because god knows I love that girl an I'd have done anything for her so I dropped the car off tried to beg her to talk to me an tell me why she was doing what she was doing but she wouldn't talk to me an called the police an had them escort me away smh I left she ended up back with her ex the same night, i never got to see my daughter born because she gave the pregnancy to her ex i couldn't meet my daughter because she was with him then I was with another girl for almost a year an she came back smfh you know what dumb thing I did next I took her back because she was the mother of my child, well i messed up again we lived together this time and it was worse now she was just cheating anywhere with anyone she got pregnant again an left again it's been 14 months 3 days 4hrs an 50 sec since I've seen her i havent seen or held my newborn son I havent seen my daughter an it's because a few weeks ago I finally seen her an I blew up on her about everything I wasnt ready to see her I'll admit that but am I wrong I mean I tried to hold it all in because her rule is if she comes back around I cant speak on anything she did to me in the past not even for closure does that seem right