OTHER - I want to go back to my old plan of killing myself and actually succeeding. I’m so mad that I couldn...

I want to go back to my old plan of killing myself and actually succeeding. I’m so mad that I couldn’t succeed before but tonight these thoughts are persistent. Should I listen to them? Should I not listen to them? I’ve been struggling with this little voice inside my head telling me to end it all. Growing up I never had a safe place to be. After my parents got divorced I couldn’t trust anyone. My mother would steal my money so I got to the point where I would have to hide any money that I collected overtime. My father just didn’t want to be a father anymore. He was a lot happier when he only has to deal with the grandkids. They never wanted me as their child, so I don’t even know why that kept me. The one year anniversary sis coming up of getting out of the mental hospital and it’s a lot to overcome right now. I should have succeed the first time I attempted suicide. People tell me I’m loved, but when I get into this state of mind I tend to not believe that. I should just follow through use my suicide note and write three personal suicide note to and the rest can read the main one I have written. Goodbye... It’s getting darker... It’s starting to become silent...