From my 23 years of living I’ve learned to: Don’t live too fast. Don’t motivate yourself too much or you’ll hurt yourself. Don’t have high expectations, you can’t ever be disappointed. Don’t get to close to people because your going to inevitably lose them someday. See, I used to try and try to reach the stars. I used to have ambition. But no matter how hard I tried I just couldn’t ever win. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t do it. Would practice all sorts of things all night and day and would get nowhere. Poured my heart and soul into things I wanted to deem a passion but got nowhere. Some people told me, “keep on trying and you’ll make it.” My dad told me I could do anything, before he got knocked. My mom told me I was destined to be successful, I never have been. Everyone would cheer and agh me on, But I still failed. I had genuine faith and hope that I would prevail, but I never have. My life has been nothing but one massive joke. I have nobody. No friends, no family. Nothing. Rightfully so I have accepted that I was born a loser. And I am incapable of being successful. No matter how determined I am nothing ever goes the way it’s supposed to. Don’t come telling me things will get better, and to have faith. Every time I have faith or hope in something it never happens. I’m hopeless. There is no saving me. This is just a quick reminder that no matter how much faith you have, you can still fail.

1 year ago

You said not to come telling you things will get better, so I won’t. I just wanted to let you know that it’s ok to fail and ok to give up and start again. And when you do fail, it’s ok to be sad and to cry and to mourn what could have been. Also, if you have nothing to lose, live like it. Do what you want to do instead of being stuck in a rut of trying something over again. If you can’t live the life you wanted, don’t.

1 year ago