I am going 2 end my life... I was going 2 about 23 years ago but then I became a teen mum. She has now moved out with bf & had baby and ive been cut off because dhhs r taking her baby away yet she told them I am abusive or dead. No explanation. Then I try confronting my mother on kicking me out on the streets age 13 on foster care b4 that & my only peace in this world my grandparents have now died & my mum denies everything soooo back 2 my plan wen I was 16 now im not wanted. I volunteer everyday with drug addicts homeless and vunruble and have so many awards & letters from out pm & ministers specially my work during covid with health departments dhhs. I am not a bad toxic person. I worked hard raising my daughter setting examples. And I try forgive my mum but she let's he bf still abuse me like travelling 2 my brothers wedding & he tried 2 kill me & because I said do it by side swiping my side of the car in2 a truck he stopped and punches me instead. He has put me in hospital and was charged 12 years ago but again my mother let him bak after 1 night and I was banned which at the time my grandparents had my corner & told mum exactly what she is doing. Gaslighting me. And now I have been diagnosed with lupus & not my daughter or mum even care 2 help me,my daughter father died wen she was 12 i was 28 & a widow. My dad never wanted me I met him few years ago 4 the first & only time & I just spent 3 days on my bathroom floor b4 a friend came by. So with that and all the abuse trauma and even trying 2 hang myself @ 8 years old should b a sign i am not ment 2 b here so with that I have my plan & how & where & no one will even notice im sure. From someone with so much love inside it hurts as I've never felt love towards me.. I feel free knowing this pain will stop soon I can't take another day moment or anything. I don't know why im not loved by those im reaching out 4. Silence is coming now...
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