Recently, my long distance girlfriend of 4 years broke up with me. We’ve been through everything together. She had breast cancer and I was there for her through every doctors appointment. She was depressed and I called her family at 3 am because I was worried. I had a drinking problem and she helped me through it. I’m 19, stuck in a concrete dorm in college because of Covid. Can’t make friends. Coming to college made me depressed beyond belief. So depressed I didn’t have the motivation to tell my baby girl, my everything, about it. She was my best friend and now she’s gone. She told me the other day that she doesn’t love me anymore. That she wants to have sex with new people. She told me that sex was super important to her. I flew 2,500 miles to see her last year right before the pandemic and almost was trapped in a foreign country. She was my soulmate, my beautiful girl. Now, she treats me like a stranger. Whenever I reach out, she shuts me down. I spend all day looking at her face. Pictures of us when we were together. It’s a double edged sword. I love looking at her. She’s gorgeous. But every time I do, I imagine her getting fucked by a guy who doesn’t love her. Paige, if you can hear me, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I wasn’t in the state of mind to make our relationship work. I’m sorry I couldn’t be enough for you and I’m sorry I made you fall out of love with me. We had plans to get married and settle down once I got my degrees. Now, I have nothing. I’m so lost and I don’t know what to do with myself. I love her so much and I’d give anything to go back in time and makes things right. I miss my best friend. I miss my babygirl and my princess. I miss the late night calls and surprise messages and silly selfies and inside jokes. I miss my best friend. For any of you still in a relationship, if you love her and I mean REALLY love her, make every second count. I wish I had when I had the chance. Make her feel loved and appreciated so when it ends, you can end it knowing you did the best you could. Paige. I love you. -Dim
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