I loved him with every piece of love inside me. He made me feel these emotions that I couldn’t describe. Sometimes he broke me down in the worst ways and other times he made me feel like the strongest girl in the whole world. I was always confused with myself when I thought of him. Some days I felt nothing and others I felt everything. I remember at times we wouldn’t talk for a while and it would feel like my chest caved in so deep. I was attached-too attached. So, you can only wonder why I am the way I am. It was a stupid stupid Instagram story that ended it all. A whole full month we haven’t talked. And I know many of you think that it isn’t long but when your soul craves someone, a month feels like forever. I wish we could just talk again. I miss him so much and even though I know he’s moved on; I still want all of him. All his manipulative feelings, all his charm, and love. All his comforting lies and his explicit mind. He was something more than any boy has ever been. He made me challenge myself-cry a lot. I never knew that a person could feel this much for a human being until I met him. I regret meeting him so much but at the same time it’s the best thing that ever happened to me. It feels like he’s walking on my heart with a million nails, and I just let my warm black blood drip throughout my body because I feel comfort in the fact he’s still there. I’m a stupid girl. I used to be so powerful and strong. So tough and aware. I’m now weak and vulnerable. Too vulnerable at that fact. He could steal my whole mind away from me with a simple text, I guess I was never strong-minded in the first place. I feel so empty but full of these emotions that hurt like hell but at the same time, I can't feel shit. He is so deep into my skin. He shatters my heart every time I think of him. I think it would be safe-but sad to say, I am in love with someone who doesn’t give a fuck about me……
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