I realized that most of the time I find myself obsessing over someone is just because I'm lonely. Now that I'm certain of it I'm a lot more skeptical of my feelings. They never last more than a few weeks at most. I honestly find this amazing. I know when I like someone deeply. That fucking person never gets out of my head, not even in decades. Not even if I try hating them. I can count those on a single hand. I never fully get over not starting a relationship with them, but for all the rest. Fuck yeah, I can handle them. I just have to wait, and then my attraction will wane away. But the best thing is that I'm learning to appreciate my loneliness. I'd rather be lonely. The freedom is immensely satisfying.