I love my husband more every day...but I’m still struggling with the hurt we have both caused one another, even after close to 18 months of therapy. I stepped out of our marriage during a very dark period In our lives, and I struggle every day to forgive myself. I confessed the same night the act happened because I was so disgusted with what I had done... I’ve done all I know to leave the mistake behind, and severed communication with the other person. But even after years...i think about him every single day. I’m not sure what this means, but it makes me feel vile. I want to let him go, I want my marriage to survive. Yet I find myself longing to dial those forbidden numbers on the phone, and run back into the mistake I made. What is happening to me? How do I fix this? What do I do...?