I don't know what i'm feeling. I feel everything but nothing. all i want to do is lay down, not sleep, just lay there. I have no energy to even sleep i just wish to be alone. i hate mirrors again, i've been avoiding them like i used to. all this time i've been wondering why i'm not enough for anyone. although i still have this belief, i realize now that it's me who finds myself to never be enough. the constant need to change my appearance is aching, as if maybe one day i'll finally learn to love myself with a new piercing or hair color. living is exhausting and the thought of having to live with myself forever makes me want to stop living. i know people have it worse and i'm ok, really.

2 years ago

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